So there she goes, moving her life from one side of the country to the other, thousands of kilometres dialled up crossing the Nullarbor with her cheeky and relatively new boyfriend in tow. Oh life, you wonderful and mysterious creature, making me partake in all sorts of crazy and daring adventures!
I moved over to WA, Fremantle a few months ago. I've had some bitter ups and downs, I'm not going to lie. For so long I wanted a change, to try something/somewhere different. Now I'm here and I feel like a puppy who's just been separated from her large family and been adopted out. An adjustment phase, a time to develop more self resilience, courage and learn about love in a new expanded way. I have so many wonderful friends all over Australia. Mostly all based in the East. I have met a few beautiful people here and am on the journey of bonding with them a little deeper. I feel like I'm just scrapping the surface and that this takes time and magnetic moments. Those soul meetings can't be organised or planned. Much like meeting the love of your life, you just have to go about doing your thing and then they appear. I see friends the same way, friends are incredibly important to me. I've said it before and I'll say it again, I need people. For the reason of the reflection they bring, they help me grow, bounce off others and integrate this whole life thing. So I guess without those strong bonds at this time, yes it's a reminder that I have to bond and reflect within myself.
I see that things come in phases, cycles and there's often interesting timing to that also. I feel like I've done this shadow phase and it was years ago. But she's back. The shadow, the darkness, the night, the unknown has called me to walk her path and she's said its not up for negotiation. Buggar it. See that, resistance. That's where the pain is, in the resistance. In Buddhism, they talk a lot about non attachment. For years I thought this wasn't an accurate teaching and they'd really stuffed this one up. Oh how righteous of me! Though after years of self development, supporting others on their journey and working with people in various transitions of their lives, I have now come to understand this non attachment gig. For when we become to attached, fixed or in control of anything, we suffer. Nature is always in a state of change and so too are we. To think we can become to glued or set in our ways, within relationships, work, health, life's direction etc is a huge fallacy. One of my favourite lines out of an old Incubus song says 'to resist is too piss in the wind'. Need I say more?
So how to not resist? How to avoid strong attachment? Develop a relationship with Letting Go. Just let go, let go, let go. There's a beautiful Zen teaching called the 'Wu Wei', it's wisdom is 'effortless effort'. To go with the flow. To trust ourselves moment by moment. Communicate our needs. To listen to our intuition. To move forward or to sit back. To be open or to be still. To express or to conjure within. Again, moment by moment. To be so in the now, that the universe has full authority to move through you and line you up with all that you need. How wonderful and exciting really!
So here she goes. Day by day, week by week, I feel my inner world start to slow. Something is calling me. A deeper stillness than I've never really known before. It feels like if I don't slow and be available to listen, I'm going to miss 'it'. Western Australia's energy is different to the East. It's as though the East asks you to be 'on', 'out' and 'strong'. Here I'm feeling a slower, deeper energy. One that asks to go 'within', rather than out.
"By all means use sometimes to be alone.
Salute thy self: see what thy soul doth wear."
Big Love, Lucy Xx
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